|Will I ever graduate from amateur?|
I am procrastinating. I have not made much progress on my Alabama story.
I'm a writer, I write. Why else would I do this when I'm not being paid and no one is making me? I don't know when I started but I do know I always had a writing notebook going from the time I was a teen. At first I wrote poetry, bad poetry. Sometimes I kept a journal and raged against the world on paper. Once in awhile I just wrote. Sometimes it was a descriptive piece from my environment, sometimes it was the beginning of a story. I just wrote.
|This is my brain on writing.|
As I grew older and had children my writing didn't happen as often. I wouldn't write on paper(I always write in my head) for months or maybe a year at a time. Something always pulls me back to it. Many times I hate it but I always begin again.
I once read a quote by a famous author(I can't remember who) that went something like this, "You don't choose to write, you have to write.". Ever since I read that I've been paranoid that I'm making myself have to write. That it's not actually something I have to do. That I'm tricking myself into it and maybe that's why I haven't actually even started anything of substance yet.
|Is too much baggage bogging my writing down?|
I don't know if I'll come up with a new way to stall next week. I really can't find the right angle on my story. I've reworked it twice so far. I don't know where to begin. Do I start from where I grew up as that is part of the reason a confederate rally shocked me? Is anyone not shocked by one?